User:J.P.H

Time and tide wait for no man! I have spent much time and currently become a middle-aged person up to forty years old. As I am up to middle-year, my emotion and feeling gradually convert to be broad-minded. Over these years, my life filled with hard works and sufferings which are difficult to disclose, bespeak and explain to other people. Although my appreciated precious ideals and preoccupation almost turn out to be unrealized daydreams, it is untaught and meaningless to being resentful and regretful due to virtuous tutorials which Confucius and other Chinese sages have indoctrinated precious lessons about we shall abide to conduct principles of morals during the life of rashly immigrant and inpeaceful periods. However, my personal ways of research and conception have increasingly changed in these years, and thus to cultivate diverse and in-depth insights into the general people and world outlook which have shifted from subjectivity to objectivity. My inherent personality has contradictorily double aspects, one aspect is the Byronic temper originated from my paternal side, and another aspect is instrumental prudence sourced from my maternal side. My youth life view is vigorous comprehensiveness and imaginative spontaneity; everlasting wonder and pursuit will not be satisfied and stayed over one stop even for a period, leading to the complicated combination of sorrow and happiness and filled with sufferings and struggles; a concrete perfection and beautiful momentum become strongly being longed and wholehearted pursuit. While if I grasped and possessed the moment, then it will be abandoned and shattered in place of the other radical pursuit afterward; these always generate seemingly an imperfect life and deficient conception. Based up the perfectionism, the pursuit established the skeptical attitude toward the intellectual research and in dealing with the other people as follows, “I deeply thought that the credible is not the desirable and thus the desirable is the incredible.” But if I continued to hold such statement and belief, then it will direct me to being self-destroyed at last. Despite in ordinary life this is harmful and unproductive; if it is applied to the proper and regular matters, then it will enhance wise self-preservation. After passing various hardships and sufferings, I have ameliorated my blind passion and have gained illuminated wisdoms to be more prudent and rational in coping with regular life.