User talk:Zzzwik

Now it is August 12 Sunday. This is the second time I am trying to keep a diary in English. The last time was last year maybe. And after studying for several months, I feel it's got easier to express myself now. This week is not as busy as normal, I am spending some time to study in work. But it's still not the ideal situation for me, because I am always worried about being sweared at which means I can't focus on study.

On Monday, I got the bonus, it's HKD 486 thousand. It is the first anniversary since I move to (of living in )the Philippines. What do I have to show for it  ? No comment. On Thursday night, I hired a Vietnamese girl, it cost me PHP 8000 again. On Sunday, I just stayed home again, studying and sleeping and writing in my diary.

I learned some basic Linux skills this week, but it's still far from what I need and want. Fortunately, my listening skills got a little better than before, I can watch videos on Youtube or read articles I've found on Google. I don't want to improve the project of the company too much any more, the first reason is that it's already come too big, refactoring will be hard and risky work, the second one is that my coworkers are not professional enough to do work of this nature, the third one is that the management here is irrational and disordered, I don't want to get a bad karma after all of my good effort and hard work. I thought the framework Vue which I had used in my work was already out of date so I don't want to study it anymore. I want to learn more and Linux is the right object I can choose. Linux is a treasure house of knowledge, I wanted to explore it at the beginning of this decade when I was in 好易. Now it's lucky for me to have the ability to read the English technological materials after much study. But the level of my English skills is still not good enough to study it easily, I need to make more of an effort.

After several failure and moments of frustration, I have got more comfortable now when listening to Youtube videos and reading articles. I still don't know which is the best way to learn English fast and effectively, but at least I have made little progress. Right now I have a dilemma, I can neither go back to China nor go to USA. I'm still preparing for it, even if there are so many difficulties.obstackles I don't want to stay here, I don't want to be sweared at by rude guys at work. But I don't know when I will got the point where I can to achieve the ability to use English easily and when or whether can I get enough money to leave this job and start a new step of my life. On the other hand, the rude guys are in a worse situation, they have entirely lost their drive to study, they can't make progress any more, the only thing they resort to doing is using rude manners to grab  little belifits, and that is an abyss they can't get out of. They can grab what they want instantly in this way, but there must be a limit. Time can change everything.

Eye for an eye had been rejected by me as a means of dealing with the relationship with the rude manners of work mates. The dark night will be gone and the rabid dogs will stop barking eventually. Nothing can last for ever, this bad situation will be fade away if I can suck it up.